To blog or not to blog, that is the question. Well not really. If  you look back at this year so far I think you can figure out that the answer is not to. I am not sure why I stopped. I suppose one reason is life/work was pretty crazy busy for a few months. I just didn’t have the time to sit down and gather together thoughts. But I will admit I also sort of lost my blog mojo. I realized something about my communication strategies. While I could come here and pour my heart out to World Wide Web I was not talking to any actual people. I am pretty cautious as to who has access to it or knows about it.  Many of the people who do read this I barely see and I am sure some are complete strangers! Some of the people who probably should know about my feelings and inner thoughts didn’t. One major person being Mike. Now it isn’t that he doesn’t know about my blog, I just know that he doesn’t read it.  His life has taken a drastic turn away from computers and he barely never checks his email or go on MSN, let alone take time to go blog surfing. So I am busy getting things out of my system here and he has no clue. I mean if I look at my blog entries from  December 3 and December 20 you will notice there is 2 week span between them. You can see just by that that I had courage to write about my blog here quite a lot sooner than I decided to talk to Mike. The fact that I even brought it up to him is actually pretty surprising. I usually don’t talk to him much about what I write about here. Having said that I realized this and he even brought up the fact that I blog rather than talk to him. So I think you will all understand why I was on a little hiatus. I am not sure how much I will continue to even write here. I have noticed that since I started talking to Mike rather than write, the need to blog has lessened. I no longer feel the pull to get things out here because I am dealing with them …well in reality. So there you have it. I am still here I am still struggling, but things are going well. I am open up the lines of communication. I have reconnected with some special friends who I’ve lost along my way. Actually sat face to face with them rather than sending emails back and forth. As much as I love and appreciate the love and support the people who read this give me, there really is something much more fulfilling than being able to reach out and touch someone. See their face as they talk, hear them laugh, and listen to love in their voice as they share with me. Best of all I am digging the hugs!

So whether I continue to blog or not is still up in the air. I will admit work has slowed down and as the summer months approach it tends to slow down here even more. So we’ll see.